I am thankful for...

Things I am Thankful For:

1) My amazing family. I have a wonderful mother who is creative and teaches me to never give up. I have a sister whose strength amazes me. I have two little kidlings who have a huge chuck of my heart, a niece and nephew who are my world. I have a stepfather who delights in going on random adventures with me. And there are three cuddly kitties who are filled with mischief and purrs and are always willing to give hugs.

2) I am grateful for my Angelboy. He is such a beautiful human being, inside and out. He teaches me how to be a better person, he never lets a single day go by without reminding me that I am beautiful and magical and amazing. Before him, I was wild and crazy and I jumped from lover to lover without a care in the world. Now, I feel grounded and secure. Even when I don't have faith in myself, he believes enough for the both of us.

3) I am grateful for books. Words and images and the feeling of paper against fingertips, the books that have shaped my heart and the books that I have yet to read, the ones that are calling out to my soul. And there are the books that I have yet to write, that are lurking somewhere within this heart. Nothing calms me down like curling up with a book, which is probably why I do it every day.

4) Yummy vegetarian Thanksgiving feast. My madre is the bestest. People ask how I have been a vegetarian for almost ten years, whether it was difficult or not. It wasn't. My mother is an amazing cook, she always supported my decision, and she has taught me how to make the most delicious of recipes. One day, I hope to be as talented as she is. As it is, my tummy STILL feels full from Thanksgiving! ^_^

5) Self-expression. Having the ability to be the weird girlthing that I am, dressing in rainbows and fishnets, piercings and silly braids, or corporate clothes mixed up with my spikes, knitted gloves and my impressively growing collection of hats. I love the freedom to be whatever I want, whenever I want. I can be a faerie one day or an Indian the next - I can give voice to all of the sides of myself. It is truly a blessing.

6) Margaritas. Especially the ones that Angelboy makes. Yumyumyuuuum!

7) Crime Show maratons - Oh, SVU and CSI, you make my days complete. :)

8) Hooping! Even when I get bogged down in the busyness of life, you are always waiting for me. And every time I pick you up and spin you around, I get the biggest smile and I feel like I am a circusgirl extraordinaire, ready to take on the world without even needing a net!

9) Warm baths. Long soaks with the scent of lavendar and a glass of wine and a good book. This has been my main self-spoiling indulgance over the past few weeks.

10) Yoga! I forgot how amazing you were. And how much more balanced I feel after completing you.

11) Rajahmonster. Although I mentioned the kitties in my family, he deserves his own special slot. Because he is mine and I adore him and he is spoiled rotton. Today alone, I think he has cuddled with me for about five hours, while I watched television or read. Seriously, the most adorable monster kitty ever. I can never be angry with him. <3

12) My business. So far, it has been working out very well. I don't regret quitting my job for an instant, and I feel so much more satisfied in general. So much more content. Proof that following your heart and trusting in yourself will not lead you astray... Now I just need to keep up the momentum and keep the ball rolling!

Grateful

Fall always makes me feel sad, easily disrupting the emotional balance I have worked hard to forge together this summer. Winter always makes me sad, always brings on panic attacks and overdramatic fears that I will not last to see Spring.

Sooo, in an attempt to thwart such silly gremlins, I am going to make a gratitude list! Here are some things that I am grateful for this week!


Things I am Grateful For:

1. It has been a week and a half since I have smoked a cigarette! And after that single bad day last week, I haven't craved another one!

2. To reward myself for a week of no smoking, I bought a pair of 0g tribal spiral horn earrings. They arrived on my doorstep last night. Can you say BEAUTIFUL! It is soooo hard to find decently priced tribal earrings for 0g.... I will post pictures of them soon. :)

3. My friend Kanyon was in a really bad accident a few days ago. He got thrown from a rollercoaster and fractured his spine in three places. But he isn't dead, he isn't paralyzed, and we have been talking a lot, especially today. I am grateful for his life, grateful that he will make a full recovery, and grateful for his friendship.

4. I am going to make some practice poi this weekend! Kanyon invited me to the circus practices that are held every week in Ann Arbor, filled with beautiful people who learn hooping and poi and fire fans and rope dart, contortionism and contact juggling and all sorts of amazing things. Kanyon also offered to give me private lessons. He is an amazing performer, absolutely stunning. I am honored that he would help me out!

5. I get a three day weekend with my Angelboy! Whootwhoot! We are going to be doing a lot of crafting, cuz I have to send out some ATCs. Then my family is going to the National Daschund races that are held in our city every year (my niece and nephew go ga-ga over this - especially now that they have a daschund of their own!). So this weekend is going to be nice and relaxing and filled with the best of people!

6. I have been busy lately learning tarot! Or attempting, at least. I am pretty good at guessing the meanings of the Minor Arcana, but a lot of the Minor ones are a bit beyond me. But hey, I am learning and working with it every day, and it has been making me really happy!


Whew. See, silly gremlins? I have a lot to smile about and a lot to be thankful for! I would write more, but I probably should actually get some work done today. ;)

What are you grateful for?